"its about time''

i'd been busy having fun!
enjoying life, hanging with friends,
having drinks till morning..
spending lots of money for my loads
for my phone and smartbro..
update my Facebook, twitter, tumbler,
we heart it,google+,blog...

I'd been busy thinking life is just that easy..
that i need to enjoy while i'm still single,
that my mom can support all this financial
stuffs we need specially at home..
that i will be fine just be like this forever..

i forgot!! and didn't notice
that i am not getting any younger anymore
and my mom is getting older either..
i need to stand up on my own
i am a big girl now, ITS ABOUT TIME!!!!!!

its hard in my part to admit that
i am now 23 and yet i haven't helped my mom
for our financial needs..
that i haven't start to give her a better life
that I've been dreaming of..
that i didn't do anything at all.. :(
as in NOTHING AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't know whats wrong with me..
why i am like this..
but
i cant hardly move on what had happened 4yrs ago..
that was the biggest mistake i ever did in my entire life!!! EVER!!!!
that until now keeps me not moving.. ;(

but i need to move forward for my mom..
to help her and give her the life she deserve..
i need to keep in my mind
that i am not her 'little girl' anymore!
i am a BIG GIRL NOW!!
ITS ABOUT TIME TO RETURN THE FAVOR!!

I'll start it now!!! as in soon...

a letter to you.....

dear mr family man,

its been awhile boy, since the last talk we had..
its been a long time but i haven't forgot about you!
those memories that we had are the one of the best memories i had!
but soon i am sure i will make more
"best memories with my future partner!

you've changed a lot! you are really a family man now!
and i am so happy for you, even though
i wish i was her

its hard to forget you mr family man,
all the things that we been through are really hard to forget,
and i know you know that..

its been 4 years,since that happened
but honestly i cant really move on about that!
that was the greatest regret i ever made... :(
there were still nights that i cant sleep and just cry...

to tell you honestly,
i'v been praying about it before,
but when the time you tell me you cant stand on it,
my world falls apart!!

but i know its really my fault,
coz i am not brave enough to face it..
but your not brave enough too, to stand on it!
i know its a part of the past now,
and its doesn't matter to you coz there you are now,
a happy family man!!!!!

i realized, the things about YOU and about ME
are really not the same anymore!
its a HUGE CHANGED!!

i thought your 'KEEPING ME FOREVER"!!!
but its just another broken words from you!!

just wanna say sorry if until now
i still remember YOU
and all the MEMORIES we had shared!
don't you worry i am trying my best not to think about you,
i know one day i will!! i know I WILL!!!

i am just hoping you now,
a happy life!!
till we meet again! i miss you boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really do!!!!! take care......


from,
ms. miserable

have you ever (franz)

full of pain..

Another
Day Passing By
Another Day Without You
Wondering If All Tomorrow's
Are Going To Be Same

Seems Like Only Yesterday
The Wonderful Day We First Met
Seeing Ur Beautiful Smile
Knowing,You Were The One For Me

Why Did Our Magic Fade Away?
Where Did Our Love Go Astray?
I Know Its Too Late Now
But, I Would Really Want To Know.

You've Met Someone New
Someone Who'll Never Let You Go
Leaving Me Here All Alone
With A Heart Full Of Pain.

by Sally Medhat